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Date:
12/9/2011 1:16:53 PM
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RE: WHAT WILL NECRO POST TODAY?
no she was not admirable specimen of the female race before she met me. far from it, on the inside. but the outside seemed fine at first.
shes far too attached to doing stupid shit she considers fun, she tries to compensate this meaningless behavior by adding definition to her life in the form of taking interest in what she considers "smart shit", which is equally just as dumb. her taste in music, literature and art is pretentious at best. its the typical human shit, people lying to themselves about what is actually important, passing off crap just to please their own self conscious. lying to be happy. having an actual logical discussion with her ends in disaster, equal to galactic facepalming. she does have an interest in knowledge, a strive to learn something good, but it is so damn misguided and confused. drowned out by the child within. she wants to appreciate true knowledge, but hasnt got the slightest fucking clue as to what it actually is. she keeps taking the blue pill. she is a person who has the capacity to truly appreciate me, but her own internal conflict ruins things on every scale. it is the negative force in our relationship that i cant help avoid to oblige, which is my own damn fault. but still, its her internal conflict that is far outstanding.
the other lady friend has a different opinion of me because she is a different person. it really boils down to knowing what you want. and she knows well. she parties way harder and has REAL issues in life, but knows that is not the way and actually goes out and does better. she is consciously aware of her own ruin and how she shapes it. and truly wants to avoid that. she is not a denier, and knows how to truly accept information. the relationship we share is great in the sense that i really help her out by explaining shit to her, how she thinks, how people work, and she accepts it all and has a desire for more. it helps her take even more control of her life. shes a listener who wants to listen and she knows whats right and what she wants. its as simple as that. she also doesnt favor conflict and knows how to avoid and pacify a situation. its a VERY SIMPLE MANEUVER that non-batshit-insane people tend to do. plus theres just no conflict between us. the potential is not even there. i enjoy her too much and how im able to express myself around her.
