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Date:
1/30/2018 12:25:21 PM
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i fucked up
weed is too addictive
the problem stems from constantly being in a different state of mind from the weed, then returning back to normal.
picture it as weight training. you play basketball with lead weights on your feet for years, then when you finally remove them for the big game, suddenly you find that you can jump much higher.
weed is actually weight training for your brain,
you learn how to think-through the very heavy weight marijuana has over your brain. the weed actually makes you very very dumb, and you learn how to not be retarded while something is making you very retarded. huge mental gymnastic.
but now i feel too fast
sleep is impossible. it feels really bad.
it takes full meditation just to keep your head at normal pace, and its impossible to sustain the level of meditation.
this is severely addictive, and there are various stages of addiction
getting over the initial 24 hour hump feels like quitting smoking nicotine, its bad.
then you feel like you are suddenly free like magic,
but then the addiction comes back even stronger now.
this is impossible for anyone to avoid unless they really know how to handle addiction.
why anyone would legalize this is beyond me.
why nobody considers marijuana to be a serious addictive substance is also very strange.
yes, it takes a significant amount of smoking to become addicted on this level, but many people do this, this amount of smoking is very common.
im thinking of pulling out of this sobriety and devising a better scheme
i have gotten over addiction like this before (smoking cigs are still much worse), but damn, this is ridiculous
