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Date:
4/17/2018 8:52:02 AM
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RE: Courage and not insanity
the greybeards seem to be summoning those who are indeed dragonborn
i did manage to shatter the realm, just as a lion would, just once, and even had witness.
it was at a slayer concert, here locally, (this was way before skyrim) at a very small and well produced venue. i was way in the very final back row, but direct center,
i wanted my voice to be heard, and made it so. i felt as there was nothing holding me back, there was no restrictions to reasoning.
i let out this huge metal growl, which was like what others were doing but only mine could be heard by the entire venue, including the band members on stage -----during their performance.
yes a bunch of headbangers in the back started worshiping me or someshit, it was strange and consequentially hilarious. it made them furiously thrash more, they couldn't comprehend what just happened to they were just thrashing harder, but like towards me.
as for my voice, no i didn't strip my lungs doing this,
its not the amplitude of the voice which was great, it was the waveform, i think, it really did manage to pierce everything
anyway, this "power" of mine, recently led to brain damage, about a year and a half ago. though it had nothing to do with raising my voice,
i had sent a surge to my brain out of ultimate frustration, it did some serious damage.
let me tell you, damaging your brain this way is the most ultimate torture, its completely terrifying because you cant fix it, and its such a huge part of you. it can be such an ultimate nightmare having your own brain turn enemy this way. there is nothing greater than being filleted by your own mind.
it taught me so much, and made me much humble.
i would have to sit there in complete fear and darkness, trying to reason with myself, with death... it forced me to learn how to reason and repair, i had to change the way i think to avoid the damaged sector. it's still pretty fucked up, but not as bad as it once was, not even close.
my brain was on a death spiral of total malfunction. complete chaos, unspeakable horror.
