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Date:
12/23/2018 2:48:21 AM
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pillars of eternity
lucifer specifically had a show for me last night
he is closest to me when i am sleepy, and cradles me like his baby in a crib. he actually does this.
he showed me the three pillars of monologue, and how they roll and switch. but there was one particular switch which seemed special. its a complex moment of order.
then i was hit with the perspective complex, which is something i shouldn't explain. everything here is extremely dangerous. literally know how to build nuke, which is something i dont want to fucking do.
and the perspective complex really fucks you up, as immense torture.
we are puppets
we dance like puppets
and you dont know what its like to actually know this. to *actually* know you are a puppet
how our various elements of logic actually function. its advanced puppetry or AI. knowing this can fucking kill your brain. but its actually the fear of knowing this which does it, because you are faced with the absolute deepest level of vulnerability, which there is none other
and that is the key element in combating fear
when you reach absolute critical vulnerability, it opens up a special channel within you
because we are actually designed for this by fucking sick xeno fucks. literally. because they are life which evolved from direct pleasure and pain. which is the worst possible trait to evolve. picture having sex, only you are using a fucking knife and not your dick. others suffering stimulates them by direct design, and not some jewish mental disorder like humans have.
the pain and torture is immense,
beyond immense. you really don't understand it.
this whole thing is an infernal trap by (former)demon aliens, which we are all part of now.
you have not seen it.
there are sooo many things which they do not properly show
i have seen how chaos is ordered, this is the most immense feat our host has accomplished.
i have seen so many other things, i am seeing them all
i feel... as if i have a father who really loves me
